Building a Home

You know when sometime you just know. I have known people that told me that you just know when you know. something that just pokes through the fog and is just so obviously to you. Like it was there the whole time.... it just needed time for you to see it.  There were things that just needed to happen for it all to become clear...  time just need to have its way with the whole thing. Now that it has.... it is so much more beautiful then anything than you could of ever imagined.
If you would of been asked to con jour up the whole thing way back when you would of missed the mark by so much.
So I am glad that they time has passed.... and this thing is right in front of me and so right.  Just like it was supposed to be... and thank what ever gods may be that I am here to see it.

Explosions in the Sky. Mind... prepared to be blown away

Hey everyone..
So here is Explosions in the Sky. If you have never heard of them... then you are welcome. They have meant a lot to me since I got sober..  This was one of the first shows that I ever went to sober. It made me remember what it was like to really get taken over by the music. Music that really shakes the very foundation of everything that you are. I hope that you like it... even if you don't, you have to give them props..

Happy sunday everyone. and Explosions.. I will see you on April 16th.

Never Expected.

Sometimes there are things that happen in my life that I would of never expected. They just come by and hit me in the side of the head... really just come out of no where. I really can't explain whey they do what they do.. but I know in this sober life of mine these are things that I really should just expect to happen.
After all... I know that everything is happening to me for a reason. I know that somethings are good and somethings are not good... but they are happening to me for a reason. That is life.
I have been turned on my ear in the past week... and I will explain what is going on later on to you all.. but what I do know is that this is good. It is something that I would be a fool to pass up..

Plans.

The last couple of days has been somewhat of a real test for me.. I can't really put my finger on what that test is.. but I know that God is putting things into my life that I need to see. I know one thing to be very true.. and something that I have learned in the past couple of years of my recovery.. there is a plan, and I am not in charge of it..
Somethings happen that make me wonder about the plan..
Two nights ago... right about this time.. two girls died in a car accident in a town that is very near to mine.. there wasnt any foulplay involved.. but two really good girls lost their lives. I didnt know either of them.. but I could feel their loss from people around me. So in turn I felt the loss. I felt the loss as a human on this earth..
like I said... I know that things happen for a reason, but what is the good reason for these two to have lost their lives. I guess it is something that I will have to wonder about, and write about. In the end it is not my question to answer. All that I can do is to prey for the knowledge of my higher powers will for me.. and thats all..
Well.. and I have said prayers for those two girls.. may they both rest in peace..

the Overall

I wake up this morning.. and I am feeling a bit different.and I really dont knew why, I can't really put my finger on it. but there is definatly something different..
Is it that I knew that someone was right in their decision. One that effected my life in many different ways.. is that it. I was thinking of that this morning.. that was different.
But i dont think thats it....
My heart is feeling really pretty good.. and i think its because i know that I am not in charge. Yesterday... I know that God was working overtime. nothing happens by accident in my God's world. Its all in his plan... and I am apart of that plan. and thats where I like to be..