Good Morning America... How Are You?

Hello there everyone. Just hanging out at my local coffee shop getting ready to get on the road again. This time I am going back to So Cal to get some dental work done. This is the kind of thing that I get to do in soberity.. Take care of myself.
Today is a whole new day. Different then the one that happened yesterday. I have the ability to start my day over if I want to.. That is a really big thing for me these days..
I am very happy to be here today.. and I am looking forward to this years holiday season more then I ever have before.. even more then I did last year... check this one out.

so here we go on another adventure. Heard from a really good friend of mine a couple of days ago... thinking that they may want to go to their first meeting.. makes me feel good...

An Experience that Ill never forget..

I love being in the right place at the right time.. seems like I always used to be at the wrong place at the wrong time.. but that really has changed in the last 20 months or so.
Today I went to a local middle school and hung out with the kids for awhile. I was invited to talk to the entire school about my experience with alcohol and drugs.. and all of the stuff that comes with it.  I have known about this for awhile now so I really had time to think about it... and that probably wasnt the best thing for me.. today when I got up I was going over everything in my head.. and then I thought of it as if I was going to share in a AA meeting. With a different audience.. a very different audience..
I got to talk to alot of kids.. sixth, seventh and eighth graders about things that are really effecting them on a daily basis.. and if it wasnt effecting them yet, it was going to in the future. I really just forgot about all of that thinking and planning that I had done before speaking and just shot from the hip.
It was a very very memorable experience. and it is something that I will never forget. something that I will never forget is questions that these kids asked. Right to the point and really no holds barred. I was impressed..
Its just another example of the awesome things that I get to do because I am sober. Another beautiful day in sobriety...
Its a really awesome thing that Jake Glazier and all of the teachers at CMS have done. I am really stoked that they let me come and hang out with them...

News Story about my aloha homies.

So Easy I do forget..

It is really easy for me to forget what it is that I am doing here. I am here to do work.. and that is the choice that I made almost 2 years ago. And there is sometimes that I forget just how deadly this whole thing is to us. But tonight I had one of those moments that really slapped me in the face. and it always has to do woth a newcomer... someone that is fresh and new.. beaten and broken.. with that look in their eyes.. the thousand mile stare... looking out onto us.. for help.

That is the reason that I am here. to help others.. to stay sober and help others t achieve sobriety..

Im super stoked.. tomorrow... I get to go speak to an assembly of middle schoolers... about drugs, alcohol, and choices.. this is what i signed up for.. yeah... 

Its a Good Day...

Today is a great day... and I can feel it. It is different then any other day that I have had before.. and I know that you ask why..Why is this day so much different?
Today is my 30th birthday... and I am sober and alive. Never thought that I would ever be sober on my 30th birthday.. If you would of told me on my 25th that I was going to be sober at 30... i would of laughed my ass off..
but here I am. 30 years of age.. looking at the years in front of me with complete awe and wonder. I like feeling this optimism. I used to wonder what optimism felt like. I tried to manufacture it with outside things never know that all that I needed was inside of me the whole time. I was the one that had to let it out. I was the one that had to let it be seen by all... and most importantly myself.  i love what I see...

another complicated day... or is it.

Just getting up and looking around.. just thinking about how fortunate that I am to be alive and to be in the place that I am at. Went to my favorite coffee shop in my hood and all of the people there like me and don't want me to leave. That is a really nice feeling.. that people like you and want you to stay in their establishment. Yesterday was a pretty big day..I had it off and I really did nothing, except nap and putz around on my computer.
I sat on my back deck last night.. and looked at my world in front of me and I smiled, because I knew that everything was going to be alright. That I was on the right path and I was exactly where I am supposed to be.
Day by Day things seem complicated at first.. then I remember that I have God. and then it seems alot easier.

I just love this..

I am Glad that I have this..

This really is a way to live.. that is really the main thing that I have gained over the past 600 days of sobriety... thats right I have 600 days today.. I remember when I first heard someone say that this was a design for living. I didnt know what that meant.. but it made me curious. I thought that I had a freat way of living all along.. thinking that everything was really alright.. then the wheels came off of the thing..
The reason that I give this entry the title that I did is that I really AM glad that I have this program.. because I dont know where I would be if it wasnt such a major part of my life. I think that I would be drunk or even worse... dead. Today was a pretty hard day at first.. I woke up and I was really out of sorts. I didnt know which way was up. Thinking about alot of the things that have happened in these 600 days and for some reason a dark cloud settled over my head... and I was off to work. Work is a place that I cannot afford a black cloud over my head... so what did i do. I relied on my higher power.. and I said a prayer. For him to take it.. and he did. the rest of the day went very smooth like.. and when I could feel myself getting a little crooked.. i just looked outside and closed my eyes... and said a prayer..
i am glad to be here.. and I am glad to be alive. and sober. love you all