Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Those Promises

Hello everyone!

Sorry that it has been a while. I know that I say that every time that I don't post for a long time and then come back. It has been a good amount of time.

There have been some developments since we last spoke.

1. I got MARRIED! (yes, married)

2. I changed careers. I got out of the tech/startup world and went into a field that I have always wanted to go into. EMS. Yes, Emergency Medical Service. I am in EMT in California. I got my license in October.

Ok.. those are the 2 big things. Let's break these 2 down a bit.



First, my wife.... because she is amazing.  


You have all been along for the ride, so you know all of the history. If you don't know then you can just got back into this blog and check it out.  There have been a couple of girls that I was with that I thought that I was going to have something long-term with....  but really, when it comes to a comparison to what I have with the woman that I am married to.. there is no comparison.

She is everything that I always wanted in a life partner, and she came out of nowhere.... just like I was told that she would. She came from the internet... and Italy.

She is beautiful.. like knockout beautiful. She is my exact type. I think I have been searching for a woman just like her for such a long time that I forgot what my type was... but there she was. My perfect being.... my perfect life partner. She is all that I have ever wanted.... all that I have ever dreamed of.

She is Italian... like from Italy. (I always have to say that... I don't know why). She has a beautiful accent that makes me feel like anything is possible.  She is helping me learn italian... otherwise I won't be able to communicate with any of my new family in Italy.

She is creative. She is a designer... and talks about all kinds of creative stuff that over my head.



I changed careers. 


I was getting really disillusioned with what I was doing... really the whole startup/tech world that was flourishing around me... as I kept getting further and further along, making more and more money... all I could think of was...
"All of this doesn't mean anything... this is all bullshit. I have to get out of here and do something that means something... even if I don't make any money doing it"
So I made my decision... I was going to go to EMT school and go into the world of EMS. It was always a dream of mine to do something in the public safety realm. My mother was a nurse and always told me that I was going to end of in health care someday. For some reason, I always knew that she was right.

When I left my job at the startup... I was so relieved. I knew that this was the right direction for me to go. Some of my former coworkers could not understand why I was going to do something that didn't pay well.   Money did not matter to me. At the end of my employment at the startup, they could have offered me 3 times what I was making and I would have turned it down. I was that unhappy with what I was doing.

It has taken a while. I got licensed in October and am going to finally start my first EMT job in a couple of days. We have a 10 day vacation in Italy (to meet my new in-laws) in December and I thought that it would not be a good idea to start a new job and ask for time off.

It is a new adventure. I am thankful for everything.

I will be better about updating you all.... thanks for sticking with me for these 8 years.





Monday, May 4, 2015

Well Hello There



So much has changed...

I don't even know where to start.

It has been quite a long time since I wrote in this blog. I guess that has been the pattern for a while for me. As you read before (probably) I have been pretty busy with my work for the past couple of years. It's so crazy how something like that can just take over your life.

That is what happened with mine. I have been working for a company for the past almost 2 years that has taken all of my attention. I have a tendency of putting everything that I have into something when I really believe in it. Thats what happened here.

I learned so much about myself over the past year... both personally and professionally. I had a real fear that I was not going to be able to accomplish some of the things that were set out in front of me at the beginning of that period. Things that were ahead of me were pretty daunting.. and I just didn't think that I had it in me to do them...

Sometimes when you are doing something.. you are forced to act out of necessity (and fear of failing) and when you come out on the other side... you have learned that you can do things that you that you thought that you couldnt do... only a short time before.

It is because of this... and some other reasons (that I will talk about shortly) that I now know that I can do anything that I put my mind to.

Last Friday... was my last day at my company. The reason that I pulled the plug on it was because I want to chase a dream. A dream that I have had for a long time... and that I was not able to go for because of some serious life reasons before... namely money.

The most major thing that has happened to me since we last talked is that I am engaged to be married... I know! I know!  I met someone... and we are going to be partners for the rest of our lives. She is my major support system... and I could not be doing what I am doing right now without her.

I am starting a new chapter in my life... starting a profession that is the ultimate example of being of service to others. I will tell you more about it later... but I just wanted to let you all know that I am back..



Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Trains and Gratitude


Hello everyone.

Its been a little while. I am sorry that i have been gone for so long. Well here I am.. good to be here.

Right now I am on a train that is headed for Boston. I was in New York City for a couple of days and I loved every minute of it. Well almost every minute of it. I am on one of Amtrak's Acela Express trains on the east coast. Its the baby bullet train of the US.. and it is pretty damn awesome.

I love trains anyway but this is a great experience. Looking out the window looking at the world just fly by around me. Thinking about my life over the last couple of months.

I have a new position that has let me travel to a bunch of new places. I have been to Austin and Boston. I went to two baseball games at Fenway Park and a game at Yankee Stadium. Those were a couple of things that were on my bucket list.

The best thing that has happened to me is that I met someone amazing a couple of months ago. Well, really it was about 4 months ago. We had met each other while I was still in SF before I left for LA in May.

She is amazing.. and I don't really even have the words to describe the way that I feel about her. There are no words that can do it. They are just feelings that i have that i have never had before. They make me feel loved.. make me feel a part of something magical. Its all that i have ever wanted.

I am pretty happy with what I have right now. There are things that happen to me day to day that frustrate me. Everything that is happening to me is helping me alone the journey.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Great Job!



Good evening everyone.

It has been a little bit of time since I have written here and I think that its about time for me to do that. So here we are.

Lots of things have changed for me.  I feel like I say that a lot in this blog.. but thats the beauty of it really. That things can just change... when it seemed that they never used to change. Or things would always just seem to turn out bad... all the time. Now that is not so much the case any more. Sure.. things are bad sometimes.. but they are never like they used to be.



Sunday, March 16, 2014

It's a Beautiful Thing


Sometimes I get these fits of inspirations that fill me from the bottom of my feet to the top of my head. I can't really explain them that well but i know that they are right. I know that they are supposed to be happening.

They are a combination of warm light, amazing warmth and boundless optimism that seem to just grip me. They grab hold of me and shake me to the very foundation. They refill my well of optimism in my life and the future.

Something happened to me last night... and in the end its a very good thing. Some part of my heart closed off just a bit... and there was pain. My heart was beating just a little bit faster then it usually would. But after awhile... all that I could think about was how grateful I was to have experienced it in the first place... and how excited I was to get to experience it again.. in a different way.

In the end.... this life is a beautiful thing.