Hello again

 Its just so crazy how your life changes when you have a child..... not only your physical situation but your entire outlook on every situation around you. The way that you systematically approach life is different. I would not have it any other way.  

All that I want is to be a good day,  a great husband and save a couple live along the way. 

I just want to make my kid proud.  

I have been listening to the soundtrack of my life that is Spotify... and I am going back through some of the playlists. They are ordered based on when they were created, so they are a pretty good chronicle of my life.. through music. 

This page is another. This page will be here as long as Google lets it be here.  I don't know why I have the motivation to write... when other times I am really just scared to put it down. I was having a lot of doubt about who I was and who I had become.  So...  I am feeling pretty good about the way that this is feeling right now. I hope I can replicate it again. 

I don't know who is listening.. but there has been a lot of change. Life changes.... too many to document.

I hope that everyone is well out there in blog land... I hope that I will be back soon. Cheers.  

Welcome Back- Just about 2 years

Ok... so lets just address the elephant in the room right now. Who is this beautiful child that I see above me. This child is just beautiful.  Who made such a beauty? 

I made her. Well... we made her. She did most of the work. Ok, she did all of the work and I was just there.  I was the first one other human on this earth to touch her head... I was the very first and I can always say that. 

I have a daughter... a little girl. 

and she is just perfect.  

She is my everything and I love her to the ends of the earth. She is the light.. of our lives. Its crazy how something like a kid will do that for you. They always said.. all you need is a kid to truly experience true love. I never really understood. Well now I understand. The baby is the end-all-be-all. 

She has the attitude.. and it I love it and it really annoys me at the same time. 

Wowie Zowie... my life has changed a lot. We moved across the country all the way to Pittsburgh. We had a baby as you can see in the above picture. We bought a house and we are doing some renovations to it.. I became a paramedic and I work for the City of Pittsburgh. HA! They hired me..... a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I was 100% upfront about everything and it paid off... I got my dream job. 

I don't remember where we were the last time that we talked. Well we will talk more soon. 

Just About Every Year

Hey all. I hit the blog just about once a year. Thanks for coming back...

Every time that I check in.. there is something big that is happening in our lives.

We are having a baby. We are really excited about it. 

When it really comes down to it.... all I have ever wanted in my life is to find a life partner, and then have a baby with that person. Hands down... that's all that I've ever wanted.

The baby is due in September, so I will let you know how she is doing sometime next year....

Oh yeah... its a girl. 

I won't tell you the name that we have picked out. You will have to wait.

Have a good night. Comment below to let me know you are here.

Those Promises

Hello everyone!

Sorry that it has been a while. I know that I say that every time that I don't post for a long time and then come back. It has been a good amount of time.

There have been some developments since we last spoke.

1. I got MARRIED! (yes, married)

2. I changed careers. I got out of the tech/startup world and went into a field that I have always wanted to go into. EMS. Yes, Emergency Medical Service. I am in EMT in California. I got my license in October.

Ok.. those are the 2 big things. Let's break these 2 down a bit.

First, my wife.... because she is amazing.  

You have all been along for the ride, so you know all of the history. If you don't know then you can just got back into this blog and check it out.  There have been a couple of girls that I was with that I thought that I was going to have something long-term with....  but really, when it comes to a comparison to what I have with the woman that I am married to.. there is no comparison.

She is everything that I always wanted in a life partner, and she came out of nowhere.... just like I was told that she would. She came from the internet... and Italy.

She is beautiful.. like knockout beautiful. She is my exact type. I think I have been searching for a woman just like her for such a long time that I forgot what my type was... but there she was. My perfect being.... my perfect life partner. She is all that I have ever wanted.... all that I have ever dreamed of.

She is Italian... like from Italy. (I always have to say that... I don't know why). She has a beautiful accent that makes me feel like anything is possible.  She is helping me learn italian... otherwise I won't be able to communicate with any of my new family in Italy.

She is creative. She is a designer... and talks about all kinds of creative stuff that over my head.

I changed careers. 

I was getting really disillusioned with what I was doing... really the whole startup/tech world that was flourishing around me... as I kept getting further and further along, making more and more money... all I could think of was...

"All of this doesn't mean anything... this is all bullshit. I have to get out of here and do something that means something... even if I don't make any money doing it"

So I made my decision... I was going to go to EMT school and go into the world of EMS. It was always a dream of mine to do something in the public safety realm. My mother was a nurse and always told me that I was going to end of in health care someday. For some reason, I always knew that she was right.

When I left my job at the startup... I was so relieved. I knew that this was the right direction for me to go. Some of my former coworkers could not understand why I was going to do something that didn't pay well.   Money did not matter to me. At the end of my employment at the startup, they could have offered me 3 times what I was making and I would have turned it down. I was that unhappy with what I was doing.

It has taken a while. I got licensed in October and am going to finally start my first EMT job in a couple of days. We have a 10 day vacation in Italy (to meet my new in-laws) in December and I thought that it would not be a good idea to start a new job and ask for time off.

It is a new adventure. I am thankful for everything.

I will be better about updating you all.... thanks for sticking with me for these 8 years.

Well Hello There

So much has changed...

I don't even know where to start.

It has been quite a long time since I wrote in this blog. I guess that has been the pattern for a while for me. As you read before (probably) I have been pretty busy with my work for the past couple of years. It's so crazy how something like that can just take over your life.

That is what happened with mine. I have been working for a company for the past almost 2 years that has taken all of my attention. I have a tendency of putting everything that I have into something when I really believe in it. Thats what happened here.

I learned so much about myself over the past year... both personally and professionally. I had a real fear that I was not going to be able to accomplish some of the things that were set out in front of me at the beginning of that period. Things that were ahead of me were pretty daunting.. and I just didn't think that I had it in me to do them...

Sometimes when you are doing something.. you are forced to act out of necessity (and fear of failing) and when you come out on the other side... you have learned that you can do things that you that you thought that you couldnt do... only a short time before.

It is because of this... and some other reasons (that I will talk about shortly) that I now know that I can do anything that I put my mind to.

Last Friday... was my last day at my company. The reason that I pulled the plug on it was because I want to chase a dream. A dream that I have had for a long time... and that I was not able to go for because of some serious life reasons before... namely money.

The most major thing that has happened to me since we last talked is that I am engaged to be married... I know! I know!  I met someone... and we are going to be partners for the rest of our lives. She is my major support system... and I could not be doing what I am doing right now without her.

I am starting a new chapter in my life... starting a profession that is the ultimate example of being of service to others. I will tell you more about it later... but I just wanted to let you all know that I am back..