These are the times that let me know im alive

Hey there everyone. Another day in the sobriety of Richie Rich has come and is almost gone. Today started out pretty good I must say.. as I went to my local farmers market and did a little shopping for my self. went home and put all of the veggies that I had bought into a big pot and let it simmer. And then started to eat it... you know, like you are supposed to do when you make food. I wouldnt really know because I have never really made food for myself... so it was quite the adventure.
Then I got a phone call from my lady... and she had some thing that she wanted to talk about. And it was something that was pretty important... and I could tell that it was. It was about our relationship... and how intense that it was. and how early in sobriety that she was..
Something that I really did know was coming. but was wishing really wasnt.. I know that it is the right thing at this point.. but it hurts like a bitch...
I really opened myself up... and I am glad that I did. but with it being open... it is obviously very open to taking a hit.. straight on.
I mean I know how I was feeling when I was 6 months sober.. and I know that I was in no place for a relationship. but once again I thought that I was different. and once again this is God's way of telling me that I am not. and it is the check that I need I guess...
but it still hurts like a bitch...
I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now.. and it hurts. but this is what I get to see today... and I dont have to drink about it.