Playing the Tape all the Way Through.

So this is what I had to start my day off with today. A feeling of freedom that I enjoy these days.. Wondering what I would do without it. Sometimes I feel like I am and progressing.. and then there are some days that I think that i am regressing. Like I'm at the same place that I was before, with the only exception being that I'm not drinking.. Yesterday I had a pretty big craving for alcohol after I left work. I wrote about some of the other stuff that had happened that day.. but I really didnt write about the craving that I had.. It was very real. It was the normal everyday reaction that I would of always had back in the day.. alcohol fixes everything. I was driving down the main street in my town... it was pretty late.. on a Sunday.. pissed off and Sunday.
I played the tape out to the end.. and I knew where it would of led me. Right to the end. So that didnt happen.
God provides me with exactly what I need. Because I really have no idea.

the Overall

I wake up this morning.. and I am feeling a bit different.and I really dont knew why, I can't really put my finger on it. but there is definatly something different..
Is it that I knew that someone was right in their decision. One that effected my life in many different ways.. is that it. I was thinking of that this morning.. that was different.
But i dont think thats it....
My heart is feeling really pretty good.. and i think its because i know that I am not in charge. Yesterday... I know that God was working overtime. nothing happens by accident in my God's world. Its all in his plan... and I am apart of that plan. and thats where I like to be..