this sucks.

Sometime things have to be done for your self that are going to hurt someone that you care about. Even if it makes them think that you don't care about them.  The last thing that I want to do in my life is to hurt someone else.. but sometimes it happens.. It has happened to me in my recovery. When I think back on those times I know now that it was for the right reason and that it needed to happen. The timing of everything just want right and it was my Higher Power's will that it happened..
Some things in life are not fair.. and it tears me to the core.. the blame here lies with me.. and me only..