Things Can Change in a Dime

I know that I have written about this many times before in this blog... but I am constantly amazed at how my higher power takes care of me.. Even sometimes when I don't think that I deserve it or I am not worthy of that love.. there it is, right in front of me.
I guess thats they way that it goes when you have a loving HP in your life. Something that I never had before and I never imagined that I would have when I was in my disease. There was not hope of anything  that was greater then me when I was in the middle of that.
Wait.. I did have a higher power for a longtime... and that was all mighty alcohol. It worked for the longest time for me and then one day it just stopped working for me. That was the day that I knew that this whole thing was over for me and that I better start looking for alternatives.

Things change.. it is the consistant thing in my life.

Reasons....

There are things that happen for a reason... and when they do I don't know why they happened I just know that they happened. I am living the result of them.
People come and go out of my life for these reasons. Sometimes I think that they should go and there are other times that I think that they should stay. Sometimes I think that I have the answers to how these situations should work out....
When it all comes down to it... in my life, there are somethings that I can't explain. I don't want to. Sometimes people come into my life and it just feels right. My heart tells me that what I am feeling is true.... my heart will not steer me wrong. My heart will tell me the direction that I should go.....
The other person that is in that other direction may not be at the place that they need to be to receive me... but my heart is there. and it is trying... and that is all that I can ask.

I put my heart out... knowing the risks that are involved.... but I do it freely....
I am love... and I deserve love.

I have said this prayer many times over the past couple of months... and it is always just right.

God... thank you for what you have given me.
God... thank you for what you have taken away from me.
and God... thank you for what I have left.

Just another day in the life of a recovered alcoholic.... I am so glad that I get to feel this experience and feel these emotions...

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